Many have asked how I'm feeling, well to be honest, not that great. Well physically I feel wonderful, it's as though I never just gave birth 9 days ago, no pain, nothing, even (tmi, that wonderful flow is gone). But seems I have been afflicted with the good ol' baby blues. After I had my son I ended up with them 8 yrs ago almost, must be a boy thing, because I have it again. I ended up with postpartum depression after him, but nothing too serious. I guess one of the things that gets me down is that we are through, no more children, I am finding it so hard to let go of the fact that we'll never have another one, I'll never be pregnant again, I know it's crazy, 5 kids hello, that's enough, but it's still sad. To talk to my hubby, shit he can't understand why I cry and get upset. Men! I think that the closer my appointment gets for my tubal the more upset I get, but this is what has to be done, we can't have anymore. :(

Other than that little babble, everyone is adjusting well to the baby. Ava still thinks he's her toy, she calls him Noley, it's pretty cute. Speaking of Noley, the little one doesn't know how enjoyable it is to sleep at night! He's up about 3-4 times a night, ugh, little turkey. Anyway, that's it for now, don't have much else to post about, trying to get in the mood for Christmas, but I'm just not into it this year. I hope this mood lets up and I start enjoying things more. :(

Oh the house, the basement is getting poured tomorrow so that's promising. Can't wait to see some of it going up, maybe that will get me in a better mood.