Thanks for all the congrats. I'm still in a state of disbelief. I think it'll eventually sink in once I start "feeling" pregnant. So far, I only have the lovely mild cramping and fatigue. Oh how I am tired. I figured that the babies will be about 15 months apart, since my OB will more than likely induce me earlier than my due date, if that's even correct. We'll have to wait for the ultrasound for the definite date but according to all the online ones it's Aug 2. Well we've been through this before, I think it'll be much easier with that age difference than with my 5 yr old now. But all kids are different so we'll see.

I told hubby Monday night. Basically sang the classic Whitesn*ake 80's tune, "here I go again on my own" Of course he thought I was kidding. So I showed him the test, and the fact that I'm a week late, he's starting to believe it. I won't breathe a word of this to the kids till we know all is well and so on. I'm not sure how I feel about this. I mean, I was very upset at the thought of never having another child, but now that it's happening, I can't explain it. I'm scared because of how sick I was with my last pregnancy. I wonder how I'll tell work, LOL> Returning from maternity leave only to go again on leave, that's cute. So right now, I am grateful, because I know how hard some people try to have children.

I must go to sleep now, just finished doing a backshift. The hyper overtired mode is starting to shut down. Take care all :)

Well I am "postively" shocked. Seems there will be another family member coming our way sometime in August.

Next step: Tell hubby.

I remember my 17th birthday as if it were yesterday.

I had been dating a guy who was 3 years older than I was. We dated for 2 years and then we broke up about 2 months before my 17th birthday. Anyway, he called me about a month later, asking to meet up again. Of course when we broke up, I was devastated. I was on the pill but didn't really care if I was taking it regularly since I had no intentions of dating anyone anytime soon, since I had just gotten out of a 2 year relationship. How naive!

I agreed to meet with him and of course I was stupid and we of course "got it on". I had instantly thought, what if I got pregnant? But that was a crazy thought, I was still on the pill, but had missed two during that month.

I wasn't even late that month but I just knew something was different. I knew. I just knew. I told the ex about the possibility of it and he had said, we'll deal with whatever happens.

Then I took a test. I will never forget that feeling, on my 17th birthday I found out I was pregnant.

Telling my parents was one of the most "surreal" things I have ever experienced. I felt as though I were watching myself telling them. They were supportive and disappointed. They took it much better than I thought they would, considering the circumstances.

Oddly, I feel like I did when I was 17.

Still late, hoping she'll show up by tomorrow. If not I'll test.

2 posts in one day......

Oh where, oh where is my period, oh where oh where can it be???

I figure if I acknowledge the 3 day lateness and possibly wear white pants, it'll bring it on full force.

My period was only ever this late 4 times before..........

Well, it's been awhile since I last posted. I haven't had much ambition lately. I think that the "honeymoon" phase of blogging for me is well overwith.

I took my son to the Dr. the first of this week. She seems to think that it may be reflux that he has and prescribed him some zantac. So far so good. He's been eating a ton now since he's been started on his meds. He'll still have to go for a b.arium swallow test to fully diagnose him, but we're not sure when that will be. Heck, I dont' know how they'll get him to drink that anyway, it's awful!

Last night was parent teacher night at the school. My son's teacher doesn't think that he has a learning disability, which is good, she is however going to put him in any extra reading courses that she can, cross your fingers that he makes it into this one she's suggested.

I saw my oldest daughter's teacher and was surprised at the comments. I know she's a chatterbox but her teacher told us she's "inconsiderate with comments to other's at times". That really upset me. So anyway, we told her what the teacher said and hope she'll change. I don't know what else to do. Basically treat others the way you would like to be treated phenomenon.

I did some shopping yesterday. I got some really good buys on toys. I saved almost 80 dollars =) I am still having one heck of a time finding a few toys that the kids are asking for. That d.ance r.evolution game is next to impossible to find around here. So I'm checking out e/bay trying to find it.

Well must go, don't have much else to write about. I think I may be shutting down soon, since I'll be back to work, and whatnot. We'll see.

Guess who got another tooth??

I bet you can't~ LOL. She now has 2 :) You can kind of see them in this picture here. What a laugh, hubby and I think that she's going to be the holy terror at Christmas. I think she may attack the tree. She's totally into EVERYTHING in sight!





You have to love the disgusted look on her face!

Because I have nothing else to blog about...

Found this at Emma's site, as the title of this post suggests, I don't have much else to write about lately. Here goes :)

Are you:

A cuddler? No, I like my personal space. I will however cuddle with a baby, but only for a short while.
A morning person? No, I don't like mornings at all. Once I'm up, I'm ok in about 2 hrs. Getting up for work at 5am is a killer. I keep telling hubby, why can't I just get a day job from the hrs of like 9am to 4pm. THEN I WOKE UP!
Are you a perfectionist? No, never have been, never will be!
An only child? No. I have one brother.
Catholic: Nope, Baptist. Hubby is trying to get the children all christened in the catholic church since he is, I am all for it, but I'm not arranging it since it's not my religion.
In your pajamas? Of course, what else would I be doing at 10am.
Currently suffering from a broken heart? Kind of, I was teased about potentially getting a job in OBS where I have always wanted to work, then to find out I didn't get it. But in a relationship way, no, we are fine.
Okay styling other people's hair? oh I'm awful at it, I can't even style my own!
Left handed? No, hubby is though and my grandfather was. But back in his days when the nuns taught school they would force you to use your right hand, so he could use both.
Addicted to MySpace? no, I dont' even know what it's all about and could care less.
Shy around the opposite gender? Not really, only if I think they are hot. LOL. Other than that I dont' care I'll talk the same with them as anyone.
Loud? When I'm angry.

Do you:

Bite your nails? Yes, since I was 10 and I "crack my knuckles". Lovely eh?
Get paranoid at times? No, I don't really let things bother me much.
Currently regret something that you have said/done? Not that I can think of.
Curse frequently when you get mad? Yes, I'm currently trying to break that awful habit.
Enjoy country music? NO it's all wrong. I like 80's crap and other rock/pop stuff. I'll be honest, I have no time to listen to music!
Enjoy jazz music? No.
Enjoy smoothies? Yeah, they are alright.
Enjoy talking on the phone? Of course, but only when the kids are asleep, if not its a nonstop fight.
Have a lot to learn? I believe so, you never stop learning in life.
Have a pet? Yes, an annoying little dog that barks a lot and 4 fish.
Have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" person? In the past I had, fortunately I have found the right one.
Have all your grandparents died? No, my mother's mother is alive and my father's mother is alive.
Have at least one sibling? Yes, i just put that down.
Have been told that you are smart? Yes, by one of my professors in nursing, she gave me 100% on an assignment and swore she had never done that before and during my evaluation made it a point to put that as one of my positive qualities.
Have had a broken bone? No.
Have Caller I.D. on your phone? Yes, gotta know who's calling, so you can avoid the unwanted ones. LOL.

Have you:

Changed a diaper? About 5 times a day!
Changed a lot over the past year? Yes, had another child, cut my hair lost about 20 lbs since before I was pregnant.
Had friends who have never seen your natural hair color? My hair is it's natural colour.
Had surgery? One, laproscopic cholesystectomy. (yah, however that is spelled)
Killed anyone? No.
Had your haircut within the last week? About 4 weeks ago.

Last person who:

Slept in the bed beside you? My baby and hubby.
Saw you cry? hubby.
Went to the movies with you? hubby, we saw "last kiss" I think that's what it was called. Horrible.
You went to the mall with? hubby and baby.
You went to dinner with? hubby, the last time i went to the movies.
You talked to on the phone? Hubby. LOL.
Said 'I love you' to you and meant it? My oldest daughter this am, when I dropped her off at school.
Broke your heart? My first boyfriend.
Made you laugh? My 5 yr old daughter.

Would you rather?

Pierce your nose or tongue? Well if I had to chose I'd say tongue, but neither one appeals to me.
Be serious or be funny? Funny, serious bores me.
Drink whole or skim milk? Skim, but milk just makes me sick.
Die in a fire or drown? Oh they were my biggest fears of how I'd die. I would rather just go in my sleep. =)
Spend time with your parents or enemies? My parents, but only for a short while.

About you!

What time is it? 10:23 am
Name? I try hard to keep this blog anonymous, so I use the alias Emma.
Nickname(s)? does bitch count? LOL.
Where were you born? Canada, east coast. That's all I'm saying.
What is your birthdate? July 18.
What do you want? No bills! Who doesn't??
Where do you want to live? Where I am, just away from the in-laws.
How many kids do you want? I'm good with the children I have now.

Not much at all has been going on in my life. I worked 2 shifts over the last 5 days. I worked the holiday and then again on Monday night. The shift on Saturday was an evening one, much more tolerable than nights. Anyway, I was on a different unit and never worked an evening there. Basically I hand out pills for about 5 out of 8 hrs. Not bad, not at all, just annoying when you have residents telling you off, where to go, how to get there... who to take with me.... and what to do when I got there! LOL. Needless to say, I wasn't fighting with that person very long to take some meds. Anyway, about 2 hrs into the shift, a lady starts complaining of chest pain. Yah, with all the good ol' signs of a heart attack, radiating up her jaw and down her arm, all on the left side, her blood pressure was also 210/90. Lovely I thought to myself. So I had to call the other rn to figure out the policy and procedure as to how to send her to the hospital. One good thing out of it, I learned how to do that :) She was fine too. No cardiac probs. Which was a relief, however a bad chest infection, causing her pain. I dont' mess around with any "potential" cardiac problems, I'd never get over it if I didn't send her to be checked and something happened.

The next night I worked was interesting. Another resident was complaining of her "ribs felt as though they were broken". She was afraid to move. Now why she wouldn't tell the day staff, who knows, but hell, why not tell someone at 4am. That's a great time. I was in with her for about an hr. Trying to tell her the Dr. will see her during the day, and that odd as it sounds, the treatment for broken ribs is to lay on the affected side, blah blah. Apparently she gets obsessive like this from month to month. Ahhh the joys of working in a nursing home.

I really have nothing else to blog about, we rented the DaVinci Code and of course I fell asleep. I think I may take another attempt now to watch it before the kiddies get home from school.

Yesterday was my grandfathers birthday. He would have been 88. He died last March, of pneumonia. When he was younger he went away to war but returned shortly after, due to having pneumonia. It's ironic that the one thing that "may" have saved him when he was younger, was what took him in the end. He was an incredibly caring man that would do anything for anyone.

He developed dementia about 8 years ago. It was gradual, starting out with the repetition of stories from the past, about how he was a boxer and other funny things. He seemed to stay this way for many years, but suddenly 2 years ago went "downhill" quite fast. It was then the full-blown Alzheimer's. My parents and grandmother kept him home for as long as they could before putting him into respite care. At first he wouldn't fight you when it was time for dressing, washing etc. At the end the poor guy had no idea who anyone was and had lost all faculties.

I remember the day he died. He was diagnosed with pneumonia the day prior to and we were basically told how it was futile to do agressive treatment for him at this stage. That they'd start IV antibiotics and switch him to oral ones and that was as aggressive as they should go. We agreed. Why prolong the inevitable? Anyway, I went to visit him the morning he died. He actually remembered my name and who I was and was quite bright. We had a great conversation. That was the last time I saw him alive. I'm glad that I was there to see him that way and that is how I will remember him.

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On to other things, my son is slowly feeling better. He made a "list" of things to buy him at the store, including ice and root beer and peaches. As long as he'll drink and try to eat I'm happy. No one else in the house has been hit with this yet.

I'll let you's know how my meeting goes with his teacher when I go to it. It's not until the 24th of this month.

The baby FINALLY cut her first tooth. It was on Tuesday and it's her lower left one. The tooth next to that is coming soon. You can just see the glare of it in this picture. :)

She's also on this kick of having me hold her hands while she "walks" around the living room. I dug out my son's old baby book and she's doing exactly what he did at the same age. He was walking at 9 mos! Hope everyone has a great long weekend.

This is just too funny to keep to myself.

My son has great difficulty with school work. I often wonder if he has a learning disability. I figure the teachers would inform me of that potential if it gets to that point. Anyway, I am going to go to parent=teacher night to see if there is any improvement with his school work, etc.

So, here's the funny part. I was on the phone with the father in law and was explaining my woes to him about my son. I said he prints his S's backwards, and most numbers. He'll write his words backwards Ie: GIB for BIG. Then I told him how most of the time that's normal for children until grade 3.

FIL: Well maybe he's got that, you know, maybe he's "anorexic".

ME: AHAHAHAHAA< i think you mean "dyslexic"

FIL: HAHAHAHAHA< yah you knew what i meant.

Ugh, I've caught the baby's cold. Lovely. This is 2 in a little over a month. Can't wait till flu season is in full tilt.

She's still miserable. Her temp was up again this morning. You know she's feeling awful when she's all cuddly and just wants to lay in my arms. She's asleep now and refuses to eat anything. So it's just me feeding her now.

My son has caught it too. Just a stuffy nose for now, I hope he doesn't get that awful cough his other sister got with her cold. He has a loose tooth too. He came in to see me this morning and told me that the tooth fairy was coming tonight. It's just hanging by a thread in there. lol.

Not much else going on here. We had pizza last night for supper and hubby gave the baby a little piece of crust to gnaw on. She went apeshit with it! She didn't want to hand it over. LOL.

I think I'm going to start doing some Christmas shopping soon. I am just clueless as to what to get for my 10 yr old girl. Any suggestions? She's out of the Barbie phase and little toys like that. The other kids are pretty easy to buy for.

7 months already!

The baby is 7 months old tomorrow. Where the hell is time going??? I'll be back to work in only 2 more months. That's SOOOo soon, it'll be here before I know it. Anyway, my baby has been quite active the last week, crawling up a storm, into EVERYTHING and pulling herself up on the entertainment center AND in her crib. Just lowered the mattress today. Too dangerous now. She also is FULL of a cold. I'm not sure if it's teething combined with a cold, but she's miserable. The other kids all have a cold too. Anyway, last night she woke up with a fever around 3am. It was up around 102.5. Lovely. Of course this baby won't take medicine so the hunt was on for suppositories, found one, it worked, now I need to get more!

Must tell you about her "near death" experience yesterday. I was doing the dishes, (my kitchen is combined with my living room, it's the whole open concept thing going on) anyway, i was there, she was in the living room, barely a few steps from me. I noticed she was quiet all of a sudden, I look down and see her choking on a flippin' DORITO chip. My other daughter was into her Halloween treats and was eating chips and dropped one and of course the baby saw it and bolted for it. I had to scoop it out of her mouth and all this time she had the death grip on the remaining chip! She still tried to eat the damn thing after I got it out of her mouth! I can laugh now, knowing she's ok, but holy crap, I forgot how much they can get into! Anyway, must go now, she's sooking and she's miserable.

Halloween Pictures

I didn't take many pictures, as the kids were so excited to go trick or treating. So I snapped these 2 in the car. LOL.

The baby freaked out so I didn't even get her in her rabbit costume.

We had a lot of fun. Hubby stayed with the baby and I took the other 2 kids around. My oldest went out with one of her friends. You know the kids are getting older when they request to go with their friends. *sigh*

Anyway, my son was like a little jumping bean, running from house to house. My daughter dragged herself around after us. They got too much junk, but my son was having so much fun.

The baby is FINALLY getting her teeth after all this time of me thinking they would come through any day. And I have to lower her crib mattress now, she's pulling herself up on things. The joys, the joys. :P

Well I missed Grey's Anatomy on Thursday night and Supernatural. I was exhausted, since my baby, MY 7 MONTH old baby, wakes up every freaking 2 hrs. AHHHH!
She is just getting over the croup.

Anyway, I have been watching Supernatural lately. I rented the first season and got myself caught up on it. *not like there is much to it* I find it's pretty much like the X files, except with a few HOT men. Did I mention how HOT those guys are. OMG, Dean, Sam and their Dad what a crew! hehe. I tell hubby that's the only reason I watch that show to check out my Dean. AHAHA, I can dream, right? lol

I must make myself stay awake next week so I can catch up on my shows. This is getting a little out of control. I can stay up on the nights nothing is on, ie. Fri-Wed. But heck Thursday is the only night I want to watch shows and of course I can't stay awake. Oh well.

Must go now and make some cinnamon rolls with my kids. It's freezing here and I dont' feel like going outside today. :)