Last night hubby and I decided to go out. Last time we went out was on our Anniversary in August. I didn't think the sitter would come with such short notice but she did :) I can't get over the difference in how I was this time as opposed to the first time I left the baby, I was much more relaxed.

First we went to dinner. I got haddock fillets rolled up covered in breadcrumbs with veggies and mashed potatoes. It was delicious. I skipped the dessert since I went out to lunch with my friend yesterday. (i had McD's) Yikes.

After supper we went to the movies. Of course, I never heard of half of the movies so I didn't know what to pick. I kind of wanted to see The Guardian, but I can't stand Kevin Costner, so I didn't want to go to that one. And I never heard much about anything else that was playing so I couldn't decide. That's when I asked the ticket lady what she saw and liked and recommended. She recommended Last Kiss. I'll put it this way, next time I see her, I wont' be asking her what's good! Neither one of us liked it at all! I think the whole thing with the main characters disgusted me. I won't say anymore in case anyone out there actually wants to waste money on seeing this movie. I'm actually sorry I didn't go see the other movie. :( Our loss.

When we came home the baby had just woken up. She was asleep the whole time, and she was so happy to see us when we walked in. It was so cute. I nursed her and off to sleep she went.

My friend had her twins the other day. She got her girl and boy. The boy weighed in at 7lb 11oz and the girl was 5lb 15oz. I can't even imagine carrying around 15lbs of baby! What difference that must be now. Mom and babies are doing well, I can't get over how tiny the girl is. All the babies I have ever seen were at least 7lb and up.

I've decided I'm most likely not going to go to the in-laws. I am a complete avoider when it comes to conflict. So that's probably what I'll end up doing. I may just go to my parents house instead. We'll see. And you totally cracked me up Hilly with saying you hoped it wasn't too "assvicey".

Not much else new here. Watched Grey's Anatomy last night. Of course we got the premiere we didn't see last week. Leave it to Canada to frig it all up. LOL. Oh well. I love the show anyway. I'm totally addicted to America's Next Top Model. I think I like the twins. I even had hubby watching it with me. HAHA. He hates it too. LOL.

Well I suppose I should get the kiddies finished getting ready to catch the bus. Hope everyone has a great Friday :)

Feeling rather blah today.

Hubby and I had a wonderful fight yesterday. It's all about the SIL.

It started out that we were driving home and she had her car parked at the end of the road to pick her kids up off the bus. I'm like don't bother stopping to talk, I'm not interested. That's fine. We drive by and hubby says, she didn't even look up our way at all. Fine. Whatever. I totally don't want to waste my effort to speak to her. So then we get home. I tell him how I'm not going to his parents house for Thanksgiving this year and he gets kind of pissy and says, You ARE going. You have no choice. Then it starts. I'm like HELLO! you are not my parent, you cannot force me to do anything, get over it, I'm not going. You take the kids and go. I explained how it'll totally be uncomfortable having to sit there when SIL and her hubby won't even look our way. Come on. I'm just sparing everyone here and letting them have their time, his family would rather her there, so be it. I'm fine with that. BUT my point is that I don't want to be FORCED to speak to people I don't want to talk with.

Hubby starts saying, you can't avoid her forever, blah blah, and I'm like no, but when it comes to funerals and weddings and whatnot, i'll attend, but little gatherings like that, i could care less. I'm not stopping him from taking the kids and going. Blah. It's all foolishness. I don't even want to waste my effort thinking about any of them. I'm just super not impressed about hubby's whole comment about "YOU ARE GOING". Please, I'm not his slave. He was dead serious too that he was going to force me there. Then says, well none of us are going. And says, Thanks for ruining it for us this year. BLAH!

My 5 yr old daughter got a referral to speech therapy today. Duh took them long enough. Funny thing, all the immdiate children in this family, have speech problems. My oldest daughter had none, but she has a different father. We'll see how the baby's speech is when she's older.

Hubby and I are seriously thinking about moving out west for a few years to try and get some loans paid off. I would go for a few months on my own, but with the baby being so young, she'd never know who I was when I came home and it'd break my heart. So I just can't leave them. And of course I would miss the crap out of the other kids too, like who would drive me crazy all day long?? lol. I emailed one company and they are willing to re-locate and a sign on bonus, etc. We'll certainly have to do more searching and what not before any decisions are made, but I think it'd be the best for now, since hubby really wants to build a house in the near future. I just think if our loans were paid down somewhat we'd be able to live more comfortably rather than from pay to pay. Blah, sometimes I miss being a kid. At least I never had to think about this then!

Kids say some of the funniest things. I had to post what my 5 yr old daughter said to me on our drive in to town this evening.

Every year there is a Terry Fox run at the school the end of September and the kids have to collect money for cancer research. Anyway, the teachers give a little blurb about his cause and what he did this for. This being E's first year in school she was very excited to tell me all about what she had learned in school today.

E: Mom, you know what? We have to collect money for cancer. To help ya know, for cancer. (she has speech problems, so she's not correctly pronouncing half of these words.
Me: Oh yah, that's good, we'll have to collect money from your nan and poppy.
E: yah it's for ummm, Mr. Wolf.
Me: you mean Terry Fox.
E: Yah, dat's it. Terry Fox.

LOL. I think it's totally a "you had to be there" thing, but I crack up everytime I think of her saying that. She was close, Mr. Wolf, Terry Fox. hehehe. What a cute kid.

I went to parent teacher last night for my son and oldest daughter. I never had any concerns about my oldest, she loves school and catches on quickly enough. My son, I am worried. I saw his teacher and she basically told me that he isn't a disruptive child, if anything he's quite well behaved, it's just when it comes to doing the actual school work, he'll do anything but! She says he'll sit there and it's like he's in his own world. He 3 pages behind the rest of the kids in his class too. It's as if he never learned anything in primary. I mean, he doesn't have the basics yet. Ugh, I'm so upset. Does anyone have any advice as to how to help him? I know there are some fellow teacher bloggers out there, have you ever taught children like that and still had some hope to grade! Ack, I'm thinking he'll fail. I know it's the first of the school year and all that, and he's got to get adjusted. But you know what, last year it was the same torture to do the schoolwork. Anyway, just had to vent that about him.

Oh on the whole SIL thing, still not talking to her. She actually drove my children's schoolbags and jackets up the driveway and then threw them out halfway up! (we live supppppppper close to one another on the same driveway) i was like what the hell? Who does that? Blah, wishing she'd drop off the planet more and more these days.

Well my friend who's expecting twins went in to be induced on Monday and it didn't work. She's still hanging on to them. She'll go in on Monday again, for the 3rd time to get induced. I sure hope it works this time, because she'll need a section and she totally doesn't want that.

Must go get kiddies off to the bus, take care all :)

More Questions Answered

Well, still have my lovely head cold. But I suppose it could be worse, I could have a hacking cough with it. Gladly I don't. Anyway, this weekend I spent my time watching Grey's Anatomy, seasons 1 & 2. I'm really hooked now. I can't wait until it starts up Thursday night. Yay! I think I'm going to rent House, and get into that show too.

Went to playgroup this morning, the baby had a blast. haha. It's more for me than her right now. We're meet again on Thursday, so that shall be fun.

Ok, here's the rest of the questions that I am finally getting answered.

Girl From Florida asked:

What's your favorite meal/food?

I would have to say without a doubt Manicotti. I absolutely love pasta and italian food. But out of all the pasta dishes I've tried, that's my favorite. I also love a great dessert. I'm such a sucker for sweets. That's the hardest thing now with this dieting crap is cutting out the sweets that I crave pretty much all the time.

Isabel asked:

What are your thoughts on the Canadian dollar catching up to the US dollar?

It's about time. haha. No really though, I think it's about time that we are catching up. I haven't really paid much attention to it, since I don't do any travelling, but I was very surprised to see the exchange rate now.

Lizzy in the City asked:

What's the grossest thing you've ever had to do at a job?

Oh my dear. I'm sure I could give you infinite examples of gross things that I've had to do during my lovely hrs as an RN. Lets see, I think it would have to be in training that we get bombarded with some REALLY gross experiences. Now, I have to tell you, it all revolves around bodily functions that grosses me out. I had this one elderly patient that was getting magnalax and cascara like twice daily. Of course my shift i come on and of course I get the wonderful after effects of it. Oh my, well I don't think a cow could have shit that much in the commode. OMG< it was horrible. Cleaning that commode and that person, was by far the GROSSEST thing I had to do. I confess the only reason I torture myself is for my children. I think cleaning bedpans and commodes are pretty freakin gross.

What is your favorite thing in the whole wide world, aside from your kids and husband?

Food! haha. Well without a doubt my hubby and kids come first. Spending time with them is definately my favorite thing, but since you've excluded that, I will say chocolate and pasta. Ooooh and diet pepsi. :)

Who was your favorite teacher? Why?

Hmmm, let me think. My grade 12 chemistry teacher. He was so nice. I really liked him since he was so helpful and a sincerely nice man. I remember I just couldn't grasp the whole concept at the first of the school year and he wouldn't give up until I understood it. He was very patient too.

I was pregnant for my grade 12 school year, when I was close to my due date he'd be asking when the baby was due and I'd let him know. Of course I was 2 wks overdue with her and was still going to class and he'd ask when I was due and I'd be all like 2 wks ago, and he'd laugh and laugh and tell me not to have her in class.

Well that's it folks, I've answered all the questions. Thanks for asking. :)

I woke up this morning to a TERRIBLE head cold. Urgh. Strange, usually the kids are the ones getting sick when they go back to school, not the parent. Anyway, I took a lovely tylenol to try to help with the explosive headache I have going on now. hehe.

Tried to watch Survivor last night, may have lasted through about 20minutes and I fell asleep of course. The baby was up 4 times through the night. So much for sleeping for me ;)

Another quiz

Isn't she cute?

Found this on a random site. Here we go.

1. How often do you blog? On average I blog once every 3 days, sometimes more often.

2. Online Alias: Emmakirsten.

3. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? Yes, which is strange because I can barely stand up for myself.

4. What do you do most often when you are bored? Get on the internet, watch some TV or go to town for a drive.

5. When bathing, what do you wash first? My left arm.

6. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? Of course, those dreaded night shifts. I remember I worked nights on Dec 23 and Dec 24, so when I came home Christmas morning I stayed up until that night. I'm sure that's more than 48. Oh I'm so glad I'll have this Christmas off.

7. What color looks best on you? Pink, and light blues.

8. What’s your favorite drink? Diet Pepsi and Diet Coke.

9. Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death? Yes, that was the way i was raised and I strongly believe that this is our future after death.

10. Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends? I think it's about even.

11. What was your favorite subject in school? Chemistry, math, biology. Totally a science junkie. HATED english, and anything to do with writing major papers.

12. Are you a perfectionist? If you came into my home, you would see within an instant, NOT A CHANCE. But when it comes to writing papers, I am. That's why I deteste writing term papers so much, I just want it done perfectly and usually I want it done very quickly too, and we all know that those things take time. I am impatient.

13. Do you spend more than you can afford? Nah, I know I have a TON of flipping bills monthly. I make sure I have all the cash there to pay em all.

14. Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have love before? I think so, I would much rather have known love then not to have known it, I wouldn't want to die without experiencing this. I can't imagine how lonely life would be without my hubby and kids.

15. Do you consider yourself creative? No, not at all. I have lived in this home for over 7 yrs and still haven't hung anything different on the walls. I have no creativity in me for decorating, making crafts, etc.

16. Do you give yourself the credit you deserve? Oh sometimes. I am starting to buy this crap that taking care of 4 children is hard work ;) See it's just now that the baby is her own person, with her own wants and so forth. She's now a handful :)

17. Do you donate to charities? Yes, to local ones.

18. Have you recently done something that you’ve criticized others for doing? I'm sure I have. I can't think of anything in particular but I'm far from perfect that's for sure.

19. What’s on your mind? Go away damn headache and please baby sleep all night, Mommy needs a good night of rest~

20. Say one nice thing about the people you are going to tag! You are all wonderful, and I'm basically tagging anyone who wants to do it, I have a feeling that Emma in Canada will do this one :)

Does she look like she's enjoying her peas?? lol

School Again

The kids started school today. I can't believe it's just me and the baby now, all day until 3pm. I missed my daughter that started school today, since it was always just us going out to town, shopping and whatnot. She had a blast though, she was so excited to go and can't wait to go back. I sure hope she's like this all the time when it comes to school. Her cousin is also in her class. The hyper boy I've written about before.

Last night I went to the movies and saw Invincible. I went with my friend that is expecting twins. They are inducing her on the 18th if she doesn't go in by then on her own. So, of course you know I'm one of those annoying friends that have to check in daily and leave messages on her phone asking if she's having babies yet! hehe.

Tomorrow I am heading off to playgroup with just the baby. It'll be nice to have an outing and meet up with other mom's. And tonight I'm going out with one of my friends that I went to elementary school with. So I've been doing well at having some Adult conversation lately, hehe.

I tried to add some pics but blogger is being stubborn. I'll have to try tomorrow.

Totally Stolen

I'm a stealing again, took this from Susan's site.

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Dreamy eh? Well that's a first. :P And what's this about entertained by my thoughts??
I wonder who makes this stuff up?

The shit hit the fan, and more questions answered

So the big blowout around inlawville happened over the past weekend. I was avoiding her phone calls since I have call display, and it took her over a week to get the hint that I don't want anything to do with her. What person does that?? Anyway, she figured it out (duh!!). I know this because, she called the mother in law crying her eyes out asking her why I won't talk to her and am mad at her. I could have actually bet money that she would do that, because she's gotta make sure that I look like the bad person, not her.

Anyway, the resentment towards her stems back 7 yrs. I'm just sick of her, like I said to hubby, you can pick your friends but you can't pick your family. She's not a nice person, like for instance, at new yrs there was a party and she was all drunk, making fun of me because of my crohn's. Like that's something I can control. Just all the little digs time after time, have got to end, not to mention I am a permanent freaking babysitter for her, that's now over and done with too!~ It's actually kind of crazy that it's driving her that silly that I don't bow down to her and adore her. I'm standing up for myself and that's it. No more kissing her ass, I'm done with it. Wish it hadn't had to come to this, but it had to stop, for my own friggen sanity. I don't need someone like that constantly trying to belittle me.

On to better things, I got the baby's pictures yesterday, now I have to find my darn disk to install my scanner so I can put them on the computer.

Monday is the first day of school around here too. I can't believe all the kids, well except baby, will be in school. What am I going to do with my time then! I mean, I am up at 6am housework and all that stuff is done by like 9am. I think I'll start baking, haha, I'll blow up for sure if I start that! Oh the weight loss is going well, I'm down almost 15lbs. Now only 12lbs to go! I sure hope I can do it and keep it off, that's the problem, I don't find it to bad to get it off, it's once it's gone.

So on to more answers

Melissa asked:

If you could be/do anything in the world (as a profession), what would it be?

I think if I could do anything, I would be a L&D nurse. I absolutely love working there. It's such a rewarding place to work, I'll say MOST of the time it is wonderful and overall a happy place to work, but I've had my share of moments you never want to have happen to anyone occur. But I really would love to work there, problem is around here, you need a minimum of a year working in that area to get a position there. Unfortunately, I can't get the experience I need to be eligible for a position. Maybe someday in the future when the supposed shortage of nurses occurs I'll get to work there, but right now, it's ortho nursing for this chick!

Shannon asked:

why do you live by your in-laws and the rest of the crazy family lol?

Great question, I'm still trying to answer that! Haha, no really. Hubby grew up in the beloved woods and loves it out here. As a present for our wedding his parents gave us land. Anyway, he loves it and won't leave. So there ya have it, I'm stuck out in inlawville with no escape. Cause hubby won't move. :( Maybe I can get him to change his mine ;)

5 Months Today

Wow, hard to believe our little baby has been here for 5 months already. The time sure is flying by though, she's so active these days. She's rolling all around, yelling out all the time and she makes this super funny laugh where she starts yelling first and then chuckles at the end. She's sooo happy and smiling all the time. We are more in love with her everyday :)

I went to pick the baby's pictures up today but of course I forgot the receipt so I couldn't get them out. So I'll have to go back tomorrow to get them. After that I went to the eye doctor and got my eyes checked, finally got a new pair of contacts and glasses. It's about time! I've been looking through these other super scratched lenses for so long, even dirt looks nice and clear and clean now with my new contacts! haha.

Well Big Brother was interesting last night, I am pretty disappointed that Will is gone :( but I have to admit that Janelle made the smart move by getting rid of him. I really think it's going to be Janelle winning the show, she has been the strongest player by far throughout the game. We'll have to see what happens. I guess I'll have to get addicted to the new Survivor that's starting up right after BB.

So on to more answers:

Emma in Canada asked:

Does your husband know you blog and has he read your site?

Hubby knows of a "diary" but doesn't know it's called a blog or anything like that. He's seen me read through other people's blogs, but he's so computer illiterate that he'd never know what it was all about. He may have me fooled but I highly doubt it, he's more interested in the great outdoors than to be on the computer, so I doubt he's read it either. But ya never know I may be wrong.

Silly Hily asked:

How in the hell do you find time to blog so much with 4 kids?

Well, first of all I don't work. That's a big thing for having extra time on my hands. I'm generally up at 6am and I feed the baby and do all that good stuff with her, then it's playtime for her. The other kids are just getting up about 7:30am so then I give them some breakfast and then they are off playing. So I get my housework started, then mosey on into my room and pop on the net. So there's some freetime. Then baby wants to feed again, so since I still nurse her, I can sit here at my pc and feed her and type (that's what I'm doing at this very moment) She's all propped up with my leg and sleeping soundly. The kids usually go outdoors for awhile so I pick here and there at the internet. I'm afraid once they go back to school, I'll have unlimited amounts of time to sit and stare at my pc! Since they'll be gone from 8am to 3pm everyday~!

Do you want anymore kids?

I don't think I do. But with that said, I don't want to do anything permanent just yet. If I wanted anymore, it would only be one so that my baby could have a sibling closer in age to her rather than the 5yr age gap between them. (I think my answer according to what I just typed is yes, if you had asked Will I have more kids, the answer is no)

What is one petty thing that your husband does that gets on your nerves the most?

How he picks at me about things. Like the whole buying the truck thing, he just couldn't wait to see the other car, just had to take my income tax return and get that crappy truck (can you tell I resent the truck) anyway, I suggested that he wait until we sell the car then take that money and buy whatever he wanted. Well, anyone interested in buying a 1995 Saturn??? urgh! haha. This was about 3 months ago and we are no closer to selling that car.

What is the one thing you most like about Canada?

Oh definately our health care system and the whole maternity leave is a bonus! I didn't realize how good we have it until reading other blogs and then I totally realize how fortunate we are to have such an extended amount of time off to care for our children.

What is the one thing you hate most about Canada?

The lack of work in our area is a piss off. The unemployment rate is pretty damn high around here. Basically one of the reasons I chose nursing is that you were basically guarenteed an income with this job. Now I wouldn't have been able to find work with my business degree alone. Overall I can't say there is really much to hate about Canada.

You's Asked, I Answer

Hoping asked:

What was the most perfect day ever for you?

I'd have to say I had a few "perfect days". The day hubby proposed to me. It was new year's eve, 1998. He had rented a room at a really nice hotel. We went down to the restaurant (which happens to be my favorite) and pigged out. It was a set 3 course meal, I remember it costing close to $100 for the dinner. I knew something was up at that point. When we got back to our room, he told me he had one more present left over from Christmas. I thought it may be a ring, but I thought the box was too big. Anyway, I opened it up and sure enough there it was. I was pretty excited. That was definately a pefect day for me. Of course another perfect day was the day we got married.

Honestly, what goes through your mind when giving birth? (you are a expert with 4 kids!)

I'll go by my most recent experience, since that's the one that I have the best recollection of. hehe. Mainly, just trying to cope with the pain is a biggie for me. But I do remember at one point, when hubby was there while I was ready to squeeze the everloving shit out of his hand at one point, I thought to myself, how sad if someone had to go through this alone. Like if someone was pregnant and their hubby wasn't there to go through this with them, because I think that it's such an amazing thing to experience that I wouldn't want anyone else there with me but him.

With my son, it was such a bad blizzard the day I had him, I remember my father was out of town, on his way home. Anyway, during the delivery of my son, I wondered if my father made it home alright.

Last but not least, for my last 2 deliveries, a major thing that went through my head as the nurses told me not to push, all that I thought is this baby is gonna fly out, please someone catch it! This baby took about 1 minute to be born, no pushing at all involved (please dont' be jealous, I had a forcep delivery with my first) anyway, my 3rd baby was born after only 9 minutes. Her head was coming as I rolled over on the bed. :)

One thing in the whole wide world you want

One thing I want in the whole wide world is: to have a job I REALLLY love. I think that'd make everything else in life much easier to deal with. Knowing I hate where I'm going everyday, makes for a tough day at work, and thus comes home with me making me irritable with hubby and at kids. And to live away from SIL would be pretty friggen good too ;)

This time last year I was having an emergency ultrasound due to bleeding to find a subchorionic hematoma. I was petrified somrthing would happen to the baby, but thank God she's alive and well.

So SIL made her big announcement of her upcoming baby last night. What a friggen surprise. Of all due dates: Due the same as I was with my baby. Fuck she's a loser. Why the hell do I have so much anger towards her? Anyone else on the planet I wouldn't care but her??? Urgh. I would rather gouge my eyes out with toothpicks than to be around her. And worse, I have to live RIGHT NEXT door. (I'll get to that answer Shannon, hehe)

The questions are great, I'll be doing the answers on the weekend and it'll make for more posts. Other than that I'm off to go shopping.